For my baby
Thapelo my baby, I thought about you today and needed to tell you: I hope you know that I will always love you. Even though it’s not the way you want me to. Our friendship is too good. It’s enough for me, for us. This is a way for me to show that I love you. I do! Deeply that it’s scary and beautiful at the same time. But not in that way. I hope that I can still be enough for you in this way. I hope we don’t end but if we have to, you have a piece of me that will only ever belong to you. I think about the first new years we didn’t spend together because we got into a fight. I had never been without you and it gutted me. But I understand that you want a lover not just a friend. It may not make sense but I love you enough not to go down that path. Do you remember the times I would call myself ugly and you’d say “baby if you say that I’ll kiss you.”😂 You would never let me sulk and I appreciate you for it. Well it’s been 8 years since I last saw you. I barely survived but somehow I’m still here. I think it’s so I can talk about this grand love that I shared with my greatest friend. My friend, my baby, wangu I adore you You’re enough. Yours even after our end, Baby